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Open Question: Only read if you have time, long back story!!!!!? and more... Open Question: Only read if you have time, long back story!!!!!?I am 24 yrs old, single and living with my mum and siblings. I know what you're thinking, this guy lives with his mum at 24? My father passed away almost 3 years ago so as the eldest, i now fulfil his responsibilities, working full time, paying bills, taking my mum shopping and anywhere else she wants to go. At first, when things were changing, i just went along with the flow because my family relies on me, my mother is all alone now. Sure, she has friends and siblings bu its not the same as having a life partner by your side. Lately, i've been questioning my life and whether i hav accomplished anything or not. My friends who used to come to school with me are all graduates in respected fields whereas i only hold 7 GCSE's a-c. I messed up in college hanging with the wrong crowd, and several years down the line, here i am, working full time with no prospect of promotion. My life is controlled by boundaries, some i am to blame for such as career prospects (should've worked harder in college), having a nice car, some are boundaries inplace after my father passed away (being home for 10pm every night, not going out on weekends, not being able to go out and meet girls and date and stuff). I feel like i am suffocating in a room that is getting smaller by the day. i am a british born pakistani. I work for the public sector, it's a respectable job but not opportunity for progression in my line of work. The reason i mention my ethnicity is to possibly shed more light on my circumstances. Another thing which has recently been mentioned in my home is my marriage. My mum thinks that i should get married because it'll take a while to find a suitable partner,she thinks that i'm going to have an arranged marriage. She's worried that it'll be too late and that she has three other children other than me to worry about. Now, my problem is that i want to return to education, i am quite capable of achieving great thing however with every comes sacrifice. To get onto a good degree course, with a reputable university, i would have to give up my job and income and study full time. I know people might be thinking, why not part time study or distance learning?because an emploeyr will always choose a candidate who graduated from oxford or harvard rather than The Open University. That is a fact, like it or not. But there's more, as the sole bread winner in the family, how will i support my siblings and mother? Most degree courses are 4 yrs long. If i study now, i'll be 29 by the time i graduate, then i'll have to start from scratch. by now you should be gettin the picture of my life. I don't know what to do, everyday i wake up and go to work, come home, go gym, eat, go out for an hour and then to bed. Same routine from mon-fri. Weekends fly by as i have shopping to do, friends are all out of town in whichever city they're studying in. My social life has competely crumbled, the only people i know are guys who do drugs and alcohol whichis haraam (not allowed in islam) hence i stay at home. I haven't been in the company of a woman for a long time. I'm scared, so scared that this is how my life will continue. I understand that there are people in the world who have it rougher than i do, maybe im selfish to question my life but i cant help how i feel. I'm looking for purpose in my life, i realise thati am doing good in standing by my mum and family and letting them live the lifestyle they're used to. How can i ever pursue my own happiness when so many other people's happiness depends on me? any words of wisdom from anyone older than me would be appreciated, but i'll take answers from anyone. May i thank you in advance for taking time to read this and also tryig to help me. It will be much appreciated. Open Question: Do you think I'm fake?So basically, it's like this. Growing up, until the age of 14, I had no friends. I was socially rejected and I learned how to be less socially rejected based on observing the other socially rejected kids. By the time i was 15, I less socially rejected & was on my way to having a girlfriend and all that other jazz, but then I became obsessed with 'being cool'. In this process, I shifted a lot. I went from being socially rejected, to being just like this guy I idolized ( because he was so cool ), to being -extremely- normal, depressed, childlike, and basically all the things I never wanted to be. I think it happened during the period of time that I tried to date the guy I idolized. Things didn't go so well, so I no longer wanted to even associate with him until he fell into my manipulative plan to somehow 'come back' to me. After all this happening, I found myself alone and without friends. I became extremely artificial, snobbish, judgemental, with 'normal people' beliefs. Anything creative or original about me just went straight out the window. I haven't been able to make friends since. I've been extremely stressed over this for a while now, but it's just finally clicking inside my brain that -- I need friends! I need a social clique. The problem is, some of the beliefs that I had from then still exist inside of me and it irritates me because it's like.. I'm not myself, you know? I'm just.. a copy of him. I seriously think I was in love with him though. There's barely a day even now that I don't think about him. But it just irritates me. It's like, by being 'myself' I'm just this social reject who doesn't get anything and is quite childish. But when I take the pieces I picked up in various places, the 'mimics' of other people I feel so disappointed in myself. It's like I'm fake. Does anyone understand me? Do you think I'm fake? Well why do you think I'm fake? I can't change the unknowing. I'm a 19 year old male. I was socially rejected, well--- picked on rather, because of my voice. This caused me to dislike speaking feeling that I'd get mocked most of the time. I have a flamboyantly gay voice and am usually stereotyped as a gay male because of it. I've been accused of being homophobic during these times too, which is possibly true. I've been suppressing these problems for years by living at home in front of this computer haha. But it's finally eating me inside and out because I've forgotten all of this and want to change. Open Question: I think I'm fake. =//?So basically, it's like this. Growing up, until the age of 14, I had no friends. I was socially rejected and I learned how to be less socially rejected based on observing the other socially rejected kids. By the time i was 15, I less socially rejected & was on my way to having a girlfriend and all that other jazz, but then I became obsessed with 'being cool'. In this process, I shifted a lot. I went from being socially rejected, to being just like this guy I idolized ( because he was so cool ), to being -extremely- normal, depressed, childlike, and basically all the things I never wanted to be. I think it happened during the period of time that I tried to date the guy I idolized. Things didn't go so well, so I no longer wanted to even associate with him until he fell into my manipulative plan to somehow 'come back' to me. After all this happening, I found myself alone and without friends. I became extremely artificial, snobbish, judgemental, with 'normal people' beliefs. Anything creative or original about me just went straight out the window. I haven't been able to make friends since. I've been extremely stressed over this for a while now, but it's just finally clicking inside my brain that -- I need friends! I need a social clique. The problem is, some of the beliefs that I had from then still exist inside of me and it irritates me because it's like.. I'm not myself, you know? I'm just.. a copy of him. I seriously think I was in love with him though. There's barely a day even now that I don't think about him. But it just irritates me. It's like, by being 'myself' I'm just this social reject who doesn't get anything and is quite childish. But when I take the pieces I picked up in various places, the 'mimics' of other people I feel so disappointed in myself. It's like I'm fake. Does anyone understand me? Do you think I'm fake? Open Question: Why is this guy so rude? Or am i overanalyzing?there is this guy who was in my science class this semester. ever since i saw him, i thought he was very cute, but i didn't approach him. every time we had class, he would stare at me when he thought i wasn't looking at him and sometimes turn around and look at me even when he thought i'd see. this went on for about 2 months. one time, i decided to be brave and sat a few seats away from him and he couldn't stop nervously tapping his foot and glancing over at me while pretending to take notes. during the last week of class, i came up to him and asked if he wanted to study with me. when i asked him if he was in my science class, he said "am i? really? which class?" and acted like he didn't know me!! after i explained it, he acted very nice and suggested that we study together and gave me his number and asked me a lot of questions about where i was from, how i was liking the class, etc. why did he act like he didn't know me when i approached him? he could have said "yeah... i've seen you around..." or something!! it was just so rude. what's his problem?? so now we've got a study date... what should i do?? Open Question: Men and women I need you help?Me and my boyfriend have been dating for a long time, and well we make love. This is a problem tho, he is ok in bed but not great, and I never get to reach well you know. So guy or girls tell me what positions and what we can do to fix this. Plz and thank you Open Question: big problem. it's making me feel like a slut. what should i do?My boyfriend broke up with me on Monday, and now one of my guy friends named Matt is constantly hitting on me. Only he's not really saying anything. He just keeps getting me to sit on his lap at lunch (that's what or group does, the girls will sit on guys laps, guys will sit o girls laps, and girls will sit on girls laps, so we're all pretty chill about that type of stuff) and the first time i do, it'll be fine. The second time i do, he'll put his arms around my waist and lean against my back. and i'm okay with that cause there's not a lot of places to put your hands without touching someone when you're sharing a bench made for 4 people max with about 8-12 people. seriously. that's how many of us sit on a bench at once. But then he'll start to hold my hands and stuff, and when i try to pull them away he doesn't let go and i just kind of give up cause i don't want to make a big deal out of it. But then on Wednesday, i think, our group had to move away from where the benches were and we all were just kind of sitting on the ground or leaning against the wall and he pulled me up to him and had me leaning back against him and he kissed the back of my neck and bit my shoulder a couple of times.... as in the sexy kind of biting.... and then he walked me to my next class and gave me a hug and then he met me outside of that class when it was over and tried to start doing the same kind of thing again. i told him to stop and he did for that day and apologized for it later but then today he started trying to again. and this time it was almost worse. ALL of our group was just sprawled all over each other and the only place for me to lay was against him and one of my other guy friends but mostly on him and his hand was right underneath my boob and he kind of moved it up a little, i mean seriously two of his fingers were on it and he moved it a little again and i told him "if you move your hand anymore i will break your arm." (i meant it too) and he was like "chill, i wasn't even touching it." and he moved his hand down so that it was more on my ribs and then it was all good, he didn't try anything else (no kissing or biting) but he kind of tried to hold my hand. so. my problem. this guy is feeling me up and he's not my boyfriend, and he won't stop. but i don't want to flip out on him cause i want to stay friends with him. and friend of my ex's friend saw us kind of holding hands (i was trying to get my hand out of his without being obvious about it when he walked up) and i'm worried he told my ex we're dating. i'm still friends with my ex and i don't want to hurt him. what should i do? Open Question: Would really like some advice?Hi Im 16 I just moved out of state a year ago and my parents took me out of school my friends wont talk to me anymore because I dont go to school and now I dont know anybody in Wisconsin accept for family and Want a girlfriend I have no problem talking to girls but now if I go on a date with a girl what would she think of me. Not having any friends or not going to school Im planning when I turn 18 Im gonna go to a night school and get my diploma still let me know What you think would a girl think Im a freak or would she not care Open Question: is this guy considered "shy" and is he into me or am i reading too much into things?there is this guy who was in my science class this semester. ever since i saw him, i thought he was very cute, but i didn't approach him. every time we had class, he would stare at me when he thought i wasn't looking at him and sometimes turn around and look at me even when he thought i'd see. this went on for about 2 months. one time, i decided to be brave and sat a few seats away from him and he couldn't stop nervously tapping his foot and glancing over at me while pretending to take notes. during the last week of class, i came up to him and asked if he wanted to study with me. when i asked him if he was in my science class, he said "am i? really? which class?" and acted like he didn't know me!! after i explained it, he acted very nice and suggested that we study together and gave me his number and asked me a lot of questions about where i was from, how i was liking the class, etc. why did he act like he didn't know me when i approached him? he could have said "yeah... i've seen you around..." or something!! it was just so rude. what's his problem?? so now we've got a study date... what should i do?? Open Question: What could I do, i lied to my very best friends ...?hi, i will tell you the whole story and hope you could help me ... I met my best friend 1 year ago, and then the other best friend and the three of us were like great friends, do every thing together ...and i told the first one im bisexual, and that i told him that i dont want to date guys but i cant help it... anyway he helped me to achieve what i wanted, and i stopped dating gays and told him so... few weeks ago, some gay i used to have crush on before, like long time ago, called me after 6 months we dont talk.. he said he needs me and so... he lives in a different city.. i dont know what was on my stupid mind, i invited him to visit me for couple of days, and he came and we stayed in some hotel together and ofcourse we had sex... and i felt sorry as hell about it.. anyway next day, i was going to my college as usual and i had to take the gay friend with me, so he doesnt stay alone, and at college i met my best friends that hes my COUSIN... and ofcourse he wasnt ... i could have told them hes just a friend and it would have worked out fine !!! i dont know what was wrong with me... so the bigger problem comes ahead, the following day, our friends were going ona trip to visit some religious places in the city the gay friend lives in... so anyway i left him that day, so i would pick another friend who were coming with us to the trip as that friend didnt know how to get to the gathering place... and i said goodbye to the gay friend and i left to pick the friend and he went to the train station to get back to his home ... so on his way he met my best friends and they knew he lives in the same city we were going to so they INSISTED that he comes with us, and i didnt know till i came with the friend i went to pick up... so, i was like "OMG" ... anyway i tried to keep my amusement, and then he didnt leave when we arrived to his city, NO sir, he insisted also to stay with me, and visit the religious places (although he has a different religion) ... and i wanted him to leave but i couldnt tell him ... anyway at the end of the day he left, and we were on our way home, and then some friend asked if that really my cousin cuz he look weird and talk weird and so... i didnt know what to say, so he felt i was lying... when i came home, next day i called my friends and told them the truth "i didnt tell everyone i dated him, i just told my first best friend bout it " so, four friends knew, they were very sad, especially my 2 very close friends... they were terribly sad and disappointed...and one of them asked me "do u think i can trust u again?"... anyway i called the gay friend and broke up with him.. i dont know how i lied to them, i love them alot, but i lied... they say its alright now, but the stuff they write over the facebook and so tell that they still inside mad and sad...i know they r still feeling bad... im so sorry my message was long but plz i need help... 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