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Open Question: Relationship issue(Its a lot so if you have time and real and good advise please read)? Open Question: Relationship issue(Its a lot so if you have time and real and good advise please read)?Me and this girl were dating off and on since 2008 January. She's older than me by 6 years (shes 29 and I'm 23) and has been through some bad things in her life relationship wise. This was the first woman I've fallen in love with my whole life I found that I loved being around her, I love everything about her even the bad things I thought I'd never tolerate in a woman. I think that shes afraid of love but, I'm wildly in love with her. Just her voice makes my heart pound, when I stare into her eyes it seems like I'm stareing into something so beautiful I have to look away or I might faint fall. I'll do anything to see her with a smile on her face. Well, the reason we broke up a few times was because I just never thought that she took me seriously. She has a problem with showing affection. At this time she semed to compare me to her old boyfriends who had done her wrong in the past and that bothered me a lot. At the same time she would do so manythings for me that no other woman ever did. She was nice and caring and thoughtful. She was a proven great mother to her son. Just all around what I looked for in a woman. It hurt me bad when the first time I told her I loved her she didn't even say anything back. So, I refrained from telling her this again for a long time. Well, that was the first time we broke up shorly after that (we split for a few months) because I felt like I was wasting my time. I had sex with a few different women thinking that this was going to help me get over her It didn't work at all. THis made me want her more because none of these women compared to her in the slightest. She started to see another man that didn't work out at all for her but she didnt have sex with him. I felt gulty so I never brought this to her attention. So I could stop feeling the way I felt, I went and got her back. Without her in my life I was just really unhappy. I felt like I found the one I wanted and needed in my life and she was gone. It felt like my soul burned for this woman. When I had goten her back, we decided to just be friends for a while and keep seeing each other. I thought this was okay because at that time I jsut wanted to be around her again. Well the just be friends thing didn't last because we started catching feeling for each other all over again. Well to make a long story short we stopped talking again for some more months because of a really bad arguement we had. She said soe things that hurt me really bad and so I did the same. This time I tried to cut her off completely, I erased her number, her myspace, her facebook, I got rid of her pics on my phone I tried everything to not think about her. this went on for some more months. I tried to see another woman again but this just made me wish I had her. I found out I didnt care about the sex It was her personality her smile, just to hold her thats what I wanted. Well, I found myself doing things I had never done in my life. I was looking up her pics online just to see her face again. I called her number but she wouldn't pick up. (She only did twice out of 4 months.) Trying everything to get back in contact with her I finally did. I found out a few months ago she started seeing another man again but this time she had sex with him. She asked me if I had been with anyone and I lied and said no. I don't know why I lied . Maybe because I didn't want her to hurt like I was when she told me she was with someone else. Well he dogged her out and used her. Since we began talking again with no sex involved, we've gotten closer than ever before. Talking about things we've never spoke about good or bad. Now I've found myself back where I started. I'm deeply in love with her again. But I'm afraid to tell her how I feel I don't wanna mess up what we have right now. I want to be a part of her future and I want her to be a part of mine. I dont want to see her hurt ever again. I know in my heart I want her to me my wife one day and mother to my child. What should I do?! More Recent Articles
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